Testimonial for Pornography Addiction: The client wished to keep his name private due to the personal nature of his addiction. He hopes that sharing his story will help others that are addicted find strength and wellness.
“I have been in therapy for the past two years, trying to rid myself of my addiction to pornography. My therapy had not really changed the way I felt about anything, nor did it stop me from having the urges which fueled my need for porn. My addiction had brought my life to ruin. I had lost several close relationships because of it. I could no longer perform sexually, because I had an unrealistic expectation in my mind fueled by my pornography fantasy. Porn even affected my work and the way I viewed women as objects. Getting myself in trouble because I was disconnected from reality in such a way, I could no longer separate fantasy life with how I should be around everyday people who had nothing to do with my illusions. I was always depressed, and felt deep feelings of shame, I felt broken. It was my therapist who suggested I try hypnosis. Now in hind sight, it was the best suggestion I had gotten up to that point in my therapy.
When I came to Blooming Lotus Hypnosis, I had done a lot of research online about hypnosis. I have always been a very skeptical person, being an atheist, I want to see the science and proof that something really works. Judge became my hypnotherapist. I was impressed with his knowledge, and he was able to make me feel comfortable right away. That in itself was very unusual for me, I might even say that has never happened to me before. I was able to open up to him and speak freely about my problem with porn and how I felt. He never once made me feel embarrassed or ashamed, and maintained a genuine level of compassion while being professional throughout our time working together. He explained the process to me and for the first time in years, I really felt hopeful. The experience of being in hypnosis blew my mind. I became so relaxed I couldn’t move any part of my body if I wanted too. I felt wonderful after every session which also became my new norm of feeling every day. Each session was different, and unique. I learned were my addiction began in my life and why I felt the way I have for as long as I can remember. I learned how to change the way I feel and changed the way I thought about pornography. I learn how to forgive myself. He even taught me self-hypnosis, which I use every day now. I no longer feel depressed, or ashamed of myself. I now know there is nothing wrong with me, that I am not broken. I have been porn free for over 60 days now, and I know I will never go back to the way I was. Because everything I think and feel about porn has changed forever. I feel positive about myself and my future. My only regret is that I wish I could have found hypnosis sooner. Thanks to Judge Williams and his skill in hypnosis I got my life back.”
